Flying back to Germany, and that familiar flood of emotions threatens to overtake my determination not to cry for the next 8 hours. When people talk about “home,” at any given time my mind could be taken to a multitude of places…the home K and I are currently investing in, the one I left behind almost five years ago to build a life with my groom, the ones we’ve called home for short seasons, growing and learning about one another, and building relationships that we will cherish for a lifetime. Home may be where the heart is, but in some ways, it’s also where the heart has been. And every time I leave, no matter how painful the goodbye, I’m thankful that there are tears to shed. So once again I let them win…
I’ve met many an Army spouse who couldn’t wait to get away from their family and often never return or struggle to return because going back hurts too much. Their stories and especially our constant “see you laters” remind me to never take our time with the ones we love for granted. I’m grateful that no matter which ocean we reside across, we have nothing but love to return to in more states than I could count on one hand. What a precious gift.
Most of you know that the last couple of months I had the opportunity to be with my family in Arkansas. K flew back to the states for Christmas in Arkansas and New Years in North Carolina. His trip flew by way too quickly, and before we knew it he was on a plane again, headed back to Germany for a month of field training. I could not of been happier to get to spend time loving on family.
I can’t wait to be back with K. The life we are journeying is more than I could ever imagine. But there will always be a part of me that longs to be close enough for a walk with my mom, coffee with my sister, breakfast with dad, game nights, cookouts, recitals, and t-ball games…Some days it feels like we are experiencing so much and missing so much at the same time. So for now, I’ll let myself be a little sad that all that love can’t be in one place, and continue to trust in God’s perfect plans during the separation.
Thank you to everyone who made our visit financially possible and crazy special. I’ll remember it always ❤